Reveal

“So please, don’t use your black side to take my heart, my love, my intention. Being you, just being you... ’cause I’m tired to deal with it . Can we pretend that I didn’t know what have you done to me? But, sorry,  It won’t forget from my memory, forever.”

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I’m walking in this road while looking my self at the window  from every house that I passed. My steps move slowly and suddenly I’ m realizing something. Why I’m being alone all of the time? I didn’t say that I’m a Loner, but looking my self  like this makes me feel, “How can I through by my self? Being single isn’t bad, is it? But, seeing people arounds me, they looks very happy being couple. But, how about me? How can I still smile ‘till this day and being happy like them too? Ah... One thing comes into my mind, “You don’t have to be like them. They choose their own path because they deserve to get it. What were they get?”. Another thought realize me something ... “ God send you someone in the right time, right place and ofcourse a right person. If they aren’t right? It means they don’t deserve yet. They (he or she) maybe came in (not) right time or (not) right way. Speaking of way, I want to share something that really “hit” my mind and my heart. What’s that?

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A not long time ago, but it’s seems a really old time, when I met someone, feels that he was my destiny and I fall in love with him in no time, means, it was a short time to be falling in love, I don’t know, in 2 weeks, Ah... Well just say like that. When I feel really comforted by him, a dissappointment, no a big mistake has been done by him. He used an unlogical way, a really-really-naive thing that I ever know. Well, I know this “thing” for several years, but towards me? Oh God...Is he really loves me? Or what? Want to “tied me up” with a black thing? I really couldn’t believe this thing happened to me, really. From that time, I promised to my self, not to believed someone in short time, even “love” him (this is the wrong thing I ever did at that time) and look people not from outside, but also his “inside”. His attitude, his faith and his iman. Well, he really taught me something. Even you hurt me but honestly, I learned more. Learn to know my self first, learn what were the most important thing that has to be a life priority.

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Maybe, you don’t get what I’m telling from this story, but the point is, if something get with a wrong way, believe that God never being silent of it. God will lead you a way to release from a bad thing if you believe that God is your one and only protector. A bad thing will lose if you trust in your heart what was the right one, and trust your God. Last but not least, before you decide to choose someone, look into your self first. Are you deserve to be with him or her? Are you ready to share your true love, true feelings and your life with him or her? 

Before that happen, fix your self first. Fix your heart...

August, 1st 2015

RED